::Sometimes I feel like I'm super happy, others sad. No idea been having mood swings sometimes. Thanks to all of you who have tried to cheer me up lol. I'm gonna start a new.::

.:Fireport blogged on 11:04 PM:.
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::Guess I'm over her I think?
I don't really know.
I feel I need to change my blogskin.
and go back to this
Maybe I really need to be like then.
To make my heart stop.
I don't know.
I'm kinda lost.
I'm not sad anymore.
I just.
Don't know how to feel and what to feel.
I'm conflicted and hard to think.
No idea what to think::

.:Fireport blogged on 3:36 PM:.
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::I probably shouldn't sound all sad and stuff since people have been trying to cheer me up. Its not easy you know. I mean like I don't blame her or anything but I just wish there was so much more I could have done and I have so many things left I want to say. I can't say them to you no more. I have so many plans, so many hopes and now its all well finished. I don't blame you cause I already felt I was a burden to you. I probably was. You had your life, you were most of mine. Right now I really don't know what I can be saying or doing. Even when I wanted to cry nothing came out. I feel sad yet I can't cry. Why is it that even at what I seem is now my lowest point I can't cry. I have no idea anymore.

Since you feel so free, you're free to go anyways. I won't hold you back anymore. I'm sorry if I ever did.::

.:Fireport blogged on 9:57 PM:.
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You

by jenawin

ocean waves wash my soul cleanse me of your smile and the memory of ten fingers entwined forever in a hopeless wish

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.:Fireport blogged on 12:37 AM:.
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::Ok ok life has been busy and boring for me. Surprisingly for myself a little slip of the tongue and oh too honest comments has landed me in more trouble than it should have due to some people blowing things out of poportions. I won't be saying who it is to not implicate people but yes I'm not having a fun time dealing with it. And if you're reading this, I'm not going to go to your level and attack you like I should be doing, if you want to reply to my tag or something try not to like post your name on the tag cause I want to keep this as civil as I can. No point making things worse than it is if you ask me.

Well that's about it, I need to go back to sleep my head's spinning night::

.:Fireport blogged on 8:17 PM:.
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