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.:Saturday, May 31, 2008:.
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I met this amazingly sweet girl 2 days ago
I don't know her name
but I know who she is
and I'm not telling who.
Talking to her really makes me feel comfortable and makes me feel at ease.
Its almost amazing that she is a friend of a close friend of mine.
lol
In a way every time she says her heart beat is faster.
I have this small sense of happiness in me lol.
And every time she talks.
Even when I heard her voice last night.
My heart rate jumps too.
I felt super afraid to say the wrong thing to her
Especially last night on the phone.
lol
I even dreamt about her yesterday when I went to sleep.
No details on that, but I'll tell her about it later.
now even thinking about her gives me the butterflies
hmmm
whats this feeling now?
has the glass started to fix together again?
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.:Wednesday, May 28, 2008:.
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Check out this video
Its Ayumi Lee ( not related with Ayumi Hamasaki)
With the song Cutie Honey
You know compared to the Koda Kumi version
This is sooooo slutty and techno ah beng like lah
It totally spoil the jazzy mood of the song
I mean ok the original Cutie Honey was like super cutesy and stuff
But then this version takes away the jazzy touch to it
and the korean language in this isn't really all that good

Then heres Koda Kumi's version for your viewing pleasure
lol


Pardon the low quality its the best I could find from Youtube

Go and judge for yourself which is better and tag on my blog
lol
I'll update again tonight
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.:Fireport blogged on 4:01 PM:.
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.:Thursday, May 22, 2008:.
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"You'll Always Be A Part Of Me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl Can't You Know You Can't Escape Me
Cause Darling You'll Always Be My Baby"
Always Be My Baby - David Cook
My new fave song from American Idol David Cook
haha
I mean its a nice song
and I wished I could sing it for someone but theres no one yet
haha
I sorta lost a friend yesterday
She totally stopped replying me
I feel sad
But I gained another friend I can slowly trust too
I've always known her
but then again I've always been afraid to talk to her
Anyways I'm not going into details
and I'm now like soooooo bored
haiz
My band name is "Pull To Flush"
Here's the line up
for now
Lead/Rhythm: Me
Lead/Rhythm or Drums: Alvin
Female / Lead Vocals : Pram
and the rest isn't here yet
I want this band to work out for real
I'll put my soul into it
I hate it if people run away from this band
haha
Anyways thats all for now
Jiana
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.:Fireport blogged on 5:36 PM:.
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.:Wednesday, May 21, 2008:.
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I feel
Alone again
Its like
I want to be saved from this loneliness
Yet its something I enjoy so much
Cause it's supposed to be cool or something
I hate this feeling
Yet am so in love with it
I can't stop longing for someone to share my burdens
and my heart with
Yet I choose not to do so
Due to the sins that I have wrought
I might deserve this loneliness
And yet again I might not
It seems that the whole world has semi-abandoned me in a corner
And I need someone to fill up this space
I don't want to be the Millionaire Playboy Genius that I plan to be
I want to be the simple guy with a guitar
All the girls love but will never get cause he found his love
Its a blessing to be such
A blessing I might never have
I don't know
I'm one step closer to the line
Where I snap and choose to become colder
I want someone to save me
Who can save me...
I don't want your pity
I want a solution to this madness
I don't want your sorrow
I want a way out of this cave
I know I'm selfish
But I have to be for now
I want to save myself from this loneliness
Before it gets to me
I hate being lonely....
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.:Fireport blogged on 9:25 PM:.
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.:Tuesday, May 20, 2008:.
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The whole day has been going well for me
I have 1 new super close friend
I have 1 old friend back to being a close friend
I finished Dead To Rights in the middle of class
I slept the whole day away in Mother Tongue
I played Heroes of Might and Magic 3
With great succession
I'm not in a super angsty mood
ok ok
I'm in a good mood today
haha
I decided to be less stressed out
I also started to rekindle my interest into entering JC
I don't know why
but I always felt Mass Comm is like the place for me
The place to be
but suddenly
All of a sudden it isn't anymore
I feel its either JC or FSV for now
haha
I know
I'm fickle minded
but thats the type of person I am
the only thing I'm not fickle in
is the true qualities for the girlfriend I'm looking for
Those never change
haha
Talk to you guys tomorrow
jiana
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.:Fireport blogged on 8:39 PM:.

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OK ok
I was like totally stressed yesterday?
haha
Now I'm feeling better
Thanks for the concern
Yah Peeps
lol
I gotta go school now
G'bye
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.:Fireport blogged on 6:31 AM:.
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.:Monday, May 19, 2008:.
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I'm feeling out of sorts right now
Don't know why
I'm like posting for the third time today?
thats like saying I have too much time on my hands
garr
I'm bored like siao
I need someone to occupy me
I need someone to talk to
I need someone to be there
RIGHT NOW
I don't like this feeling
the house is empty
and I feel weak
I hate weakness
I want to grow stronger
I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME GROW STRONGER
Please I beg
to anyone who can read this message of weakness
this plea for salvation
JUST HELP ME
JUST HELP ME
....
please
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.:Fireport blogged on 9:14 PM:.

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I WANNA CRY
MY GUITAR STRING SNAP!!!!
T.T
MY BELOVED GUITAR STRING SNAPPED
I WANNA CRY
GRRR
WHY AM I SO ANGSTY
WHY CAN'T I CONTROL MY TEMPER ANYMORE
IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME????
I WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG
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.:Fireport blogged on 9:02 PM:.

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Hey you know what?
I'm kinda jealous of the people around me
Not to wallow in self pity
But its that
I feel I always get the short end of the stick ya know?
It might be my own doing but
I still feel I'm helluva unlucky when it comes to love
lol
Those who I've sinned against have found a true and connecting love
Those who have left me sad
Have also found such things
Its like everyone else around me is happy with someone
haha
Its good too
but it leaves me lonely somehow
I feel very lonely all of a sudden
In the midst of all this joy around me
Seeing my friends find their special ones
I feel a sad pang of loneliness and despair
I feel that I've lied to myself time and again in the past
Wanting each girl to be the one I could stay with
Without any regret or such
Of course I don't regret being their boyfriend
but I do regret the wrongs I've done
Is it normal?
I don't know
I am a sinner
and in this sinners body
You can see the price I paid
Provided I take of my shirt
haha
Which I won't till I get abs
I hope I can reconnect with all of my ex-girlfriends
Become good friends with them
and maybe just maybe
If they let me
Atone for my sins
In this sense
Sin is not something against God
But something I did that was against my own set of principles
I hate myself for that
But it is a price I have to pay
I think its time I paid my master a visit.
Maybe?
I'm not sure
Its been 3 years since I've seen him
or bothered to visit
He might kill me
but heck
I don't really care
I might visit him
Provided I remember to
But then again I might not
He told me to find love
and find strength in it
before returning
I haven't really found either
I only found a lot of wrong turns
lol
And heck its not I lost faith in love
Its that I don't think I'm worthy of it
With what i have done
So until a girl can accept me for all my sins
I think I'll be single till then
Or rather
I won't fall in love till I can find a girl who could
Of course I'd still fancy girls
and turn to putty in their hands
as usual
but still
It doesn't mean I love them
I have a feeling
The girl I might really fall for
I'd catch her with a glass of red wine in her hands
or a game controller
either way
haha
It still works
heck enough of this post
lol
You must be bored
Go do something with your life
haha
Shoo
Come back tomorrow
I'll post again tomorrow
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.:Fireport blogged on 6:02 PM:.
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.:Wednesday, May 14, 2008:.
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I apologize for Azereal's
Intrustion into my blog
lol
Ok I didn't do well for my exams
but doesn't that mean I have to study?
haha
maybe I don't know
i might lol
24 is a high number
But no effort was put in
I wonder if I did put in effort
haha
Post more later I'm lazy
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.:Fireport blogged on 3:04 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 11, 2008:.
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Enough with the Emo Crap "edward"
I'm sick of what you are doing to us
Yes I'm in control of you while you fall asleep on the table
I'm sick of what you think hurts
I don't care anymore about what you think
I will take full control of you if you continue to do this to us
I won't hesitate
And even though this is my first public appearance
It won't be my last if you continue you weakling
I will make sure you become strong for yourself
And I assure you
Even it meant betraying everything you hold dear
I will make you stronger than you are now
Whether you like it or not
I don't care about what you think about it
Be warned Edward
I've spoken and I mean it...

- Azereal
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:54 PM:.

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Well I've got nothing much to post today
other than simple ramblings
hahahaha
lol
I sometimes wish that things could be simpler
that you know
Just wanting to do something
Would be without any unwanted consequences
But that doesn't seem to be the case for me
I mean there was one thing I wanted to do
but I can't do it anymore
Nevermind
I'll get over it sooner or later
But I think it will be sooner than later
Its not that I want to forget
but its that
Its a part of me to do such a thing
To forget the difficult and sad things
and only remember the easy and simple things
Its my own protection system
I don't know why
but it is
I can't think of anything else to say
I'm at a loss of words
All I see now is the void in front of me
And its time to walk into it and try to come out alive
I'm sick of this darkness
I will walk out of it soon
Either alone
with friends
or with a girlfriend
I don't care
I will walk out of it
And emerge as someone else
Someone who can do a better job than I can now
As for then
I'll leave it for that
cya all tomorrow
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:43 PM:.
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.:Saturday, May 10, 2008:.
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lol
Well guess who's the girl?
I'm not telling
But she reads my blog
hahaa
Anyways
Its like
Even if you don't believe in love
I do
but still
Of course I have my doubts about it
haha
And seeing my cousin today with his long term steady girlfriend
really made me feel
Love can exist
Its just that its not time for me yet I guess
haha
Of course thats cause I'm single now
lol
Love
what is love?
I don't know
I want to know
haha
But to me love is
Sacrificing the smaller things for others
Cause the smaller things are much more important than the bigger things in life
Giving hope to those who need it
Cause without hope most people can't survive
Proving love exist without knowing what it is
Cause without love we won't exist
I will prove to her
That love does exist
Even if it meant I had to die to do it
then I guess I will
but I'm not sure how
heck
No point trying to brainstorm when I'm dead tired
I'll find a way even if I don't have one now
I'm definitely going to try and try again
Till I fail
I'll pick myself up and go at it again
I know I've said this a lot of times
Most of you don't believe it
But I don't care what you think
I meant it every time
And every time
I wasn't able to succeed cause of my own weakness
But this time
I will make sure I succeed
Cause
I feel that people should live
with love in their lives
Knowing that there's someone out there for them
and for that girl
I don't care if I do get her not anymore
Even if I have to be a tool
To get the one she likes to have her
I'll be that tool
Sure I'd feel sad
But heck at least she's happy right
Isn't that what love is about?
haha
Cya guys tomorrow
and Thanks Ka-san for giving me advice
I'll keep it close to heart
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:46 PM:.
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.:Friday, May 09, 2008:.
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I wonder if its possible to get someone to believe in love
haha
I really do
Don't ask why but I feel theres a need to find out haha
When I asked my pastor friend about love
He told me it exist in every little bit of existence
That everything is a part of God's Love
but then I told him
What If I can't seem to have faith in it
Then he asked me if it was about romance
I told him yeah
He told me
If its a person who is close to you
And he or she doesn't believe in such
Show them what love means to you
And slowly
With the greatest amount of patience you have
You can slowly let them know what love is
I have to thank My friend Pastor David
for that advice
haha
Don't ask how I know him
and no he is not from COS
So now
To all my friends who don't believe in love
I will show you what love means to me
Love for the girl I have in my heart
Love for my friends who I want to protect
Love for all my God Family who I will always care for
Love for all the people who has brought joy in my life
Love for my family who I care for and respect
I will show it all
And even if it means my life will be spent
On saving a life of those who are in this list
I will use my life in exchange for theirs
Even if I know I will be missed
At least I know I died saving a life
haha
I will be content
Even for that girl
I would easily mindlessly give my life to help her
haha
Don't ask why
But I would
My life means nothing if I can't help the people around me
Stay happy
haha
This is what I will do
and If I die
Remember to place this phrase at my funeral
"Meh =/ Shit Happens"
and laugh about the good memories you've had with me
Don't shed a tear
haha
Its hard
But its for the best
Just remember me as the friend who saved a friend
and just left one day for another adventure of his
haha
That is if I die haha
Cya all people
I'll post again tonight or tomorrow
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.:Fireport blogged on 4:05 PM:.
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.:Thursday, May 08, 2008:.
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lol had a short game of CS just now
haha
now I got nothing to do
I don't want to play CS
I'm bored
lol
I'm like damn bored lah
haha
nothing much to watch
nothing much to read
and nothing much to play
So just being bored here and stoning
Maybe I should go get some much needed sleep for tonight
haha
or maybe not
lol
I don't know what I can do for now
I'm at a loss of what I should do
I'm happy things aren't awkward
haha
yeah
nevermind haha
Well I have a guide for people who are new to my blog
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
don't read it like a blog
Read it like I'm saying the words out loud
I mean thats how I blog ya know?
with a slight tinge of country slang inside
So I'd be like
Hey Y'all I'd be a country boy from Texas
In Texas everythin, now I mean everythin is bigga
lol
Yeah sorta like that
haha
But in actual fact everything but brains is bigger in Texas
trust me I know
their group of intellectuals are not many
I assure you of that
and not for something philosophical

WHAT IS GOOD AND EVIL?

Well answer that question people
I'll give my answer here
Good is to what a person or being can comprehend as helpful or something that gives less stress or agony. An action which can be seen as a way to help one or a way to improve oneself
However, Good has no definite meaning. What you believe may be Good might be Evil to another. Such example in like how a Mother can protect a child by telling him this and that. Yes sure the child is prepared by the Mother how to face such things. But when he does face it, he lacks in experience what another child who has been through it without help has. Therefore such a practice can be seen as Good or as Evil depending on you.
Evil has the same theory as Good.
Therefore Good and Evil are nothing but perceptions to the advanced mind of humans or beings of higher intelligence.
However humans aren't really that high up
Can't tell you why
anyways not now
toodles
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.:Fireport blogged on 11:37 PM:.

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I don't know what to think right now
haha
The girl
well she hates her course thats obvious
haha
Umm I learned a bit more about her today
and her past
What she told me really hit me hard
She reminds me of Angel
The girl who doesn't believe in love
and in the end
Sorta started the ball rolling for my lack of faith in the romance department
Not blaming her lah
But its my fault I don't believe in the same thing
haha
I do believe in brotherly love, Sibling love , Love among friends
but I don't know what to think about BGR
I've been lied to a lot of times
I've been hurt too many times
for me to bother about BGR love much
lol I post another post later
Going to go CS now haha
cya later
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.:Fireport blogged on 9:57 PM:.

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haha
Finally I hit the mythical 10 of kills on Irish
I have hit my life ambition
lol
Like real
anyways
The girl
She found out
or rather by chance she did
haha
or maybe she knew
I don't know
haha
I just hope she keeps tagging on my board
haha
KEEP MY BLOG ALIVE PEOPLE
lol
Where to go from here
I don't know
All I know is
Even if I can't be her bf
I'll still be here
Trying to keep her happy
and always willing to help her
No those words are not for show
They never were
Everytime I said it
Is Every time I meant it
haha
I hope things don't get awkward between us
haha
lol
Its kinda late So I'm gonna go snooze
lol
Night ya'll
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.:Fireport blogged on 12:03 AM:.
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.:Tuesday, May 06, 2008:.
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Yeah
here I am at my blog again
Proves I have too much time
haha
Nothing much to study
I'm prepared to fail for tomorrow
haha
No ok I'm not
haha
Haiz
I'm emoing again
I don't know why
But I wish that the girl
Would just notice me haha
I wish someone would just notice that look on my face
and tell me everything would be alright
that someone could see how jealous I feel every time
I see my friends happy with their girls
I understand if the green tea couple is having their droughts
haha
I understand the predicament
I was in the same problem before
but sooner or later you'll settle it
lol
So no worries k?
haha
For the piggy and turtle couple
Happy days you will have
haha
Take it from this coyote
lol
haha
I'm not gonna ask my friends to join my singlehood
haha
That would be stupidly selfish
haha
And please spend more time with your girlfriends than me
If you want to
haha
Cause girls need more attention than guys
If I was to ask such of you
I'd be a pussy
haha
And heck if I am
lol
I'm not haha
Maybe I am really like the coyote
Like how my friend used to tell me
I hide all my emotions inside
And take different forms to talk to different people
I always thought I'd be like the Eagle
I
Can't be strong that way
and be righteous
haha
I have nothing left to say for today
lol
I only know
I can be in love with that girl
for as long as my heart wants it
Please
Save me before its too late
before I cave in
before I give into this darkness...
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.:Fireport blogged on 11:21 PM:.

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And there it goes
you know when ever I see it
I'm always one step behind her
She has found someone for herself
I can only imagine how lucky that guy is
you know?
Its been troubling me for a while now
that I can't ever get to her
Because she doesn't know who I am
Sure I know I shouldn't be having these thoughts
But heck I'm not dumb enough to ruin their happy ending
lol
I'll still be here liking the girl
haha
I think after this those who have been speculating can guess who it is
Provided you know me well enough lah
or if you've guessed from my habits recently
about how much I've put my heart into this
lol
Its tearing me up from the inside slowly
I mean
Sure I've been love lorn
heartbroken and such
but this is something else
Its like losing something more than my heart
Its like its killing my soul
I really wish that girl might change her mind
and maybe leave that guy
lol
I know its impossible
Its their story after all
And my story here is in the shadows
Silently feeling pain and sorrow
While still rooting for her that she can keep her happy ending the way she wants it
I don't know what to do about it anymore
Ok fine
I think its time I release the restraints I've been putting to limit myself
Starting with studies and gaming
Basketball has been on so long
I've really lost my skill
But studies and gaming are always up to standard
but it will take a while
Maybe when I get my music right
I can win her heart
But I'll reveal it slowly to her
lol
So she will know that I really want her to be happy
Even if it wasn't with me
At least she'd be happy
I may want her to be closer to me
but hey
Isn't what me and this girl have
Good enough for now?
haha
Maybe for her
Maybe for everyone
But I long for something more
But now its good enough
That we are friends lol
anyways heres the end of todays post
If any of you place her name in my tag board
I will skin you alive and quarter you
Then I'll slowly roast you infront of your loved one
and then slaughter you're family
haha
I MEAN IT
----
And to any of my ex-es
Please do not delude yourselves
Its not you
Its someone else
and to that girl
If you know who you are
Please keep it a secret from me
Just tag on the board that you know its you
If you do
and if you do read my blog
haha
Night ya'll
I'll go bath then play to 100 deaths with Tossgirl
I hope this time
I can reach 10
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.:Fireport blogged on 7:30 PM:.
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.:Monday, May 05, 2008:.
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Its kinda sad you know
How you can always be one step behind something
And never get to it
haha
In a way its a never ending journey
lol
Ok from today
I'm sure I like that girl
lol
But heck I'm not telling who it is here
Its too risky since there seems to be a lot of people who read this
For those who already figured it out
HUSH HUSH
or its Slice Slice for you and your loved one
YES I MEAN IT
You people tend to forget about the kill mode they left in me
well anyways
hush hush k?
haha
I'm supposed to be revising now
but I can't seem to
lol
Ok ok
You know how I always degrade myself?
well I'm going to stop doing that
haha
lol
Yeah I will stop
Cause if I'm not good enough
for any girl
Why would I have ex-es?
haha
Weird eh?
lol
Heres a poem I thought off
or rather a song lyric
here goes nothing
"If I asked you to stay would you listen,
To what my heart has to say to you,
If I went away,
Would you miss me,
Only to find that I'll be home today,
If my heart went astray would you keep me,
And teach me how to fall in love again,
You say that you hate,
But would you see me,
And learn that there is nothing left to hate."
Sung to the tune of Won't Go Home Without You (Verse)
Its nothing much
But better than some crappy love songs I know
lol
" I have a vision in my mind,
A gleem in my eye,
That I would be the one,
To have some fun,
When I'm changing the world,
And hope to see,
That the one to bring love,
Would be ME!!!"
haha
That was a lame rap I guess
lol
I'm getting lamer hahaha
and to that girl
If you know who you are
well then my game is up
But please don't shy away
I'm not that bad a person
I'm just shy to the point its awkward,
Contrary to what my friends believe,
I'm more of an introvert that needs support
Than an extrovert that can be support lol
After all I'm only human right?
lol
I hope I can get her soon enough
But it seems that fate has something else in store for me
before I can get closer
Heck I'll bull doze it down like usual
And claim that it was nothing
Like how I claim that the O's are nothing but a toy in my eyes
lol
When its the only reason I have ever felt real panic
Its almost reassuring that it lives up to its name
lol
Well good night all
haha
Toodles
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:18 PM:.
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.:Sunday, May 04, 2008:.
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Haiz today another dissapointing CS day
haha
Anyways this morning at work something hilarious happened
I was like talking to XT then like I started to bleed from my nose
No Idea why hahaha
haha
THen its like we all like find ways to make the blood stop lah
haha
In the end the folk remedy like wins all haha
Anyways today watched HERO
haha the movie liek so rocks hahaha
anyways thats all I got to say lah for now
lol
Ok maybe I lied
There might be no lucky girl
but theres a girl I'm starting to crush on
so like
I hope that I can get her haha
Even though I was always a step too late
hahaha
Anyone who knows my predicament
Will know what I mean haha
basiclly only like 1 person? haha
so anyways
night all haha cya
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:45 PM:.
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.:Saturday, May 03, 2008:.
::
lol Today has been a good day
Woke up bloody early to go to Xin Yu house to study
haha
Thanks to me
They didn't really study much
hahaha
In a way its not really my fault though
lol
After that Alvin joined us
Then I picked up his PSP and such
lol
Spent the rest of the day on a bus
and at my grams lol
I'm so bloody tired now
haha
I might still go pub later haha
Tomorrow got work though
so until 11+ lah haha
lol
hmm
Anyways people whatcha think?
Should I go find that lucky girl any time soon?
=X
haha
Leave it to you all to decide
and yes I have a girl I think I like
haha
But I hope she would feel the same way about me
Soon enough
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:33 PM:.

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I DEPROVED SO FAST GRRRR
I only got 9 kills
I died 123 times
grr
tomorrow need to train when I got chance before I sleep
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.:Fireport blogged on 1:28 AM:.
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.:Friday, May 02, 2008:.
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I'm starting to love SouL more and more
More than I did 2 years ago
I mean its really what I've been looking for in the FPS world
Sure I'm not so pro now
But I'm going to improve
I'm going to train as much as I can
As long as I have the time
Away from music and studies and work
I'll train
I'll train till I can beat my
Teacher
Mentor
and Leader
Tossgirl
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.:Fireport blogged on 11:50 PM:.

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lol
As for now theres no girl in my life
for all you people to know
the closest thing I love right now is my music
and Guitar
and Computer
lol
Of course there might be a girl I'm crushing on
but there is someone I want to save
lol
I don't know who
but anyone who is emo
I'll share your burden
lol
If you don't want me to
I'll do what ever I can to cheer you up
I can't stand sorrow anymore
I hate it
Its the only thing I hate
Sorrow
There is too much sorrow in this world
We all need to lighten up
Thanks JYI for reading my blog
haha
I really still can't forgive myself for what I did
Don't ask what
but just know that I will never forgive myself
till I can make it up to you
For others
Don't ask what I did
Just know I did something terrible
and I know I'm a monster
I have done many inhumane things in my life
From ending a life to ruining others
But now its time for me
To face up to my sins
and repay them
lol
And hey I think
there is a girl I like
but I know she can't be mine
She doesn't believe in love
haha
And She's in a different school
plus she's too perfect for a geek like me
lol
I'd never be good enough
But I'll still try
Maybe I might get lucky you know? haha
I guess thats all for now
haha
Cya guys tomorrow
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.:Fireport blogged on 10:58 PM:.
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.:Thursday, May 01, 2008:.
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I want to fall in love
could someone teach me how?
I mean
haiz
I love being single
no I don't
lol
But I'll just wait
Till someone comes along
haha
My retribution I guess
haha
Thank you karma
=)
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.:Fireport blogged on 11:13 PM:.

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lol
Ok as you can see
I changed the theme of my blog
To the Hidden Garden
Why????
Well its cause I feel I need a change
Of course I still love my guitar
hahah
So no worries there
to my future groupies
lol
Looking back I really regret all the wrongs
I've done in the past
I hope my all my ex-girlfriends read this post
I know at least 2 might
I'm not sure about the rest
I feel I'm sorry
for making you girls cry
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for any of you
All of you deserved better
No shit
lol You girls are all great
Even the terrible number 2
lol
You all are beautiful in your own ways
DO NOT LET OTHERS TELL YOU OTHERWISE
lol
Any girl can be beautiful
If they believe in themselves
haha
I'm no saint
But I know I'm wrong
lol
My sins I will carry into the Secret Gardens of Eden
lol
In a sense anyways
lol
oh yeah
You know my blog picture?
Theres a poem to it
here it goes

Inside the Hidden Garden,
A person is found,
Inside the person,
A dream is bound,
Inside the dream
A desire is born,
Inside this desire sorrow is gone...

Nice?
haha
Tag my board for your comments
lol
Cya guys
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.:Fireport blogged on 9:01 PM:.
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