::Power what is power. The word power can seep into many different meanings and have many many layers of meaning. Sometimes when you feel you have something or you've gained trust you oft will misread it as you have gained power or a certain strength. Well I do make that mistake from time to time but I agree it is a good deception that one would bring upon one self. Like sometimes when you see someone who is in doubt or confusion or anger yet you know you can't help. That will bring about the illusion of power when you try to help in a sense that you never had the power to help in the first place. It is whether the person would allow you to help him or her depending on who the person is. Of course when you have gained a friend and you see him or her in such a precarious position that you would want to help that person but when that person seems or says that you are not needed to help. Well it makes you feel powerless. I'm not saying anything or what I'm just making a point. I've rejected help and I've been rejected when I offered help before. I have always felt powerless when I see the people around me. When a person has a problem, and I know that no matter what I say won't help it. It makes me powerless. To me it feels worse than loneliness. Loneliness is my greatest fear but being powerless is my greatest weakness. I can't seem to help when I try. Maybe I try too much to help others that I should stop trying. Maybe I'd feel more powerful if people came asking for help and I refuse. No I wouldn't. No one would anyways. Who am I but a boy who loves to write and express himself to ask for the power to help others, especially the ones I love. Who am I to the universe but a spark in the darkness. I'm not asking for pity or attention I'm just venting my emotions here so I can continue my writing. I need to get all of this off my mind before I can continue otherwise I will keep feeling so horrible the whole night. No need to ask what happened I won't say but if you've already guessed it good for you. I got nothing left to say. My mood has not really been at its best recently and the weather has not been kind to me neither has my health nor my sleep. I leave you all with my parting words and what simmering anger at self I have in my words. To you all I bid adieu::

.:Fireport blogged on 10:38 PM:.
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