::I think I've developed this habit to post like after midnight and such. I'm trying to adjust my bioclock again for minimum sleep and maximum efficiency. Adjusting from the PC to the mac took about 2 days or so.

Recently I've thought about a lot of things and sure as hell I think opposites do attract. I mean the comparison is my girlfriend and me. She's smart, I'm not so smart. She's well, quiet and I'm not so quiet. She's pretty and attractive, I'm well in the words of some of my friends "creepy and sound like I'm trying to get into a peoples pants or something". Yet somehow people find us both well not really part of any groups and tend to stereotype her as emo/goth/punk/scene to which to some extent well is kinda true(SORRY DON'T KILL ME!!!!), I'm well seen as either creepy,crazy,mentally unsound or crazy. Wait did I mention crazy? I'm not sure. Well anyways its kinda like at times like this my brain really starts working where my body starts to fail. I think I really need to rest more and stuff but I somehow don't want to go offline before my girlfriend does. Some of you may think me as crazy but I feel I shouldn't cause well, I want to talk to her and stuff =).

And then comes a lot of ranting stuff. I am not exactly happy with myself. Oh my life is near perfect since I'm not in debt and I probably have enough years in me to see my granchildren but still I'm not happy. Some people say I'm well read, others say I don't read enough. I don't need to satisfy everyone but I feel annoyed by people who say I'm not good enough and strive harder. I tend to do it to the point I'd not sleep for days just trying to get better. Well in academics and things I can do at home. Sports is another issue something I've really given up on. Yeah well I'm not happy and I'm trying to improve. I've actually started writing riddles and some poems I'll feature on my deviant if any of you are kind enough to even read my blog that is.

Lol I'm actually kinda glad I get little blog activity, I don't need people reading what I think most of the time and I'm kinda amused when people do. I'm so happy that only my close friends read my blog and stuff. Well all that aside I think I need to read even more. I have been reading more books and pieces of lit recently but not enough to fill my need. A book a week is definitely not enough for me anymore. I need to read more and see more meaning in the words I claim can change lives and destroy countries. The very words that fill my post may one day save the minds of childrend and destroy the mind of dictators.

I'm not exactly the smartest bird in the nest or the sharpest knife in the kitchen. But I have this vision where I do change the world. I mean I bring smiles to the faces of people with something I do. I hope my comic will really be able to bring about hopeful smiles to people.

Yes I do. Probably many people will hate it but I hope some others will love it!!! Well till then see yah!!::

.:Fireport blogged on 1:01 AM:.
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