::Who ever was dumb enough to say "We do as the Romans do in Rome" is going to have to face me and take it to my face damn it. I am sick and tired of people telling me my attitude is too fucking different from everyone. Yes I am so stick it in your fucking pie hole and make it stay there. So what if I'm different? Doesn't that just help me filter out who my friends are and who my friends aren't? Which part of "forcing me to do things only makes me wanna not do it more" do you people not understand? Don't you think I haven't tried to conform? I'm the type of person that hates to conform to people or culture. Yes I love to embrace culture and try different things out. But I don't have to be part of your social "I'm a singaporean and I'm freaking paranoid of everyone" clique you know that? Yes I am learning how to tone down my craving for power and victory but who doesn't have such things? Yeah you can say I have an excess of it, yeah SO WHAT!!!??? HAVE YOU LIVED IN AN ENVIRONMENT WHERE YOU'RE IGNORED AND ALWAYS SAID TO BE USELESS CAUSE YOU'RE CHINESE? I guess not.... CAUSE YOU'VE ONLY BEEN LIVING IN A PLACE WHERE CHINESE PEOPLE ARE DOMINANT!!!! God Doesn't it just piss you off that I've lived in a place so different where if you're not proud you most likely get bullied your ass off? Or maybe if you don't learn how to stick it up and learn how to have guts you need to back it up with brain or brawn? Maybe you do know that since its the usual everywhere. Yeah I'm kinda ranting. CAUSE I AM ANNOYED BY THE FACT I SAID NO AND YOU PEOPLE MUST MAKE ME SAY YES. I HAVE A WILL AND A BRAIN AND A SOUL AND YEAH STICK YOUR BLOODY "YES YOU MUST SAY YES" THOUGHTS DOWN YOUR THROAT AND STICK IT THERE. Yeah I mean it. Its supposed to be "Say yes to the things you know you want, and no to the things you don't want" but nooooo you have to make me say yes to the impossible. By God, I don't care if you're freaking LKY or GWB, if I know its impossible for me there's a reason why I'm gonna say no right? Do you think I like being in debt? Hmmm how bout no!!!! Duh yeah I hate it I absolutely hate it. I'm half-exploding to the noise I have at home too. Yes I don't care bout paraphrasing cause this is nothing but a rant.

Oh that means this is what crossed my mind in my fit of anger and such took me bout 5 minutes to type the whole thing out.

And to Alvin,Yong Hua and Vinodh. If tomorrow I'm late and stuff I'll treat you but I'll only do it in January when I've paid Alvin all the cash I owe him and then if I got enough drinks are on me. Or lunch depending on how full my wallet is and such. Oh and if any of the above links to you in some unknown indirect way please don't mind it. You're not the only ones saying I'm too different and stuff, I'll accept it from you guys, EJ, Jols, and any one of my childhood friends but I can't accept it from others. Yeah I'm trying to get out of the "I want to rule the world" attitude and into the "Fuck this society I'm going Bohemian" attitude. Yeah I want to be like Jim Carrey in Yesman but without the mindless part of saying yes. Cause its the way I am inside, spontaneous and crazy. I couldn't care less about what others might say about me, heck if I had the cash I'd be on a plane every weekend to go to places I've never even heard of. Ever wondered why I wanted to explore the World? Cause its my dream to see and experience things my own way instead of through a book. Yes I know its going to be a tough road, I know its going to be a long road. But with you three on my side I know its a road I can walk through and I'm sure we can rough it out together. Bear with my high and mighty "holier than thou" attitude a while longer. I think I met my own personal "Allison", She's Jols, yeah her incase other people don't know. She's wild enough to make me feel free, she's like her in almost every aspect but yeah she's more to art than music but yeah she makes me feel free and happy. Yeah she is a part of my life now I don't wanna let go off ever. But that doesn't mean I won't make time for you guys. So stop giving me that "Got girlfriend so no time for friends" crap anymore ok? People change in time, maybe I've used quite a lot and changed little but at least I am. Hope you guys can bear with me a while longer. And yeah I will tone down the crazy a bit cause well crazy is me but I guess people feel afraid of it. I'm tired, ciao....::

.:Fireport blogged on 10:39 PM:.
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