::Hey guys I kinda owe all of you a long post and such and I think today I'll give it to you people. Its been one heck of a hectic week. My life has never felt so many different emotions at once. One moment I'm all bored then I'm happy then I'm pissed then I'm all sad and such. I've never felt so twisted in my life. I have like an avatar for every emotion and such and they're all attacking me at once I feel like I'm gonna go nuclear like Peter(Heroes reference).

I know, I know, you guys will be like "Hey you're the one that wanted the emotional thrill ride, now life's giving it to you and you're regretting." Heck yes I am regretting taking this one way ticket to every emotional boundary I have but wait a moment there don't you think there's a part of me that doesn't regret? Yeah there is, the part of me that cherishes every memory,every emotion that I ever had. Yeah I kinda enjoy this bittersweet time of my life. I find the girl I always wanted, I'm kinda satisfied with my job, I find that my friends want to change me cause I'm way too different from everyone else, my hands are shaking like I have some disease.


Yeah I got questions to ask about them too.The questions are like " Hey God, what are you going to take away from my life after giving me the girl of my dreams? Hey God, Why must all my friends change me just so I can be so normal to them, why can't society just be kind and maybe change? Hey God, Whats the difference between traditional and adaptable, why must one rule over the other one? Hey God, why must I argue with my friends all the time over my different points of view, why can't I accept theirs and they accept mine? Hey God, why the fuck do I suck at every sport only to trade it off by being good at picking up languages? Hey God, Why is there so many doubts in my life and why does every question I have lead to another question? Hey God, why is humanity so blind that they can't see that every religion is pretty much real and that its just a different road to the end of our earthly lives? Hey God, why must we all fight for our believes when we could co-exist as brothers? Hey God, why is there nothing I can do right in my life at all? Hey God, why am I so unsatisfied with myself, why do I keep craving for more knowledge? Hey God, why can't the people around me figure out why I'm so sensitive to every remark just cause I was always belittled when I was younger? Hey God, why can't you make the world less hypocritical and more frontal? Hey God, why can't you put me in a position where I can help people and save the world?"

I have many many more questions but I think that will just bore you.But I only know God will answer back in a question "Why so many questions child, shouldn't you stop asking questions and just venture your own path like you have decided? Shouldn't you find your own answers like I have taught the world?"

And I'll agree with him. I will walk my own path, my friends can abandon me, she can abandon me, my family can abandon me but nothing will stop me from walking my own path for it is something I have to do. Everyone can turn on me but I have to walk my own path for it is the only path I have to walk. Every teacher can only be a guide and not a path.

I don't care what you think anymore [b]WORLD[/b], you don't matter to me. I'll live life my own way. I don't have to conform to your norms to be accepted by you. [b]YOU[/b] are nothing more than just a small part of the universe.[b]MY[/b] friends, if you abandon me, it will be because you weren't a true friend who could accept my truths as I have now chosen to accept yours, if you stay it is because you know that even if my views differ from yours I will stand by your side when you are in need. That is my vow.....

I feel so much better after ranting. I should rant more often.::

.:Fireport blogged on 9:44 PM:.
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