::Fear...
The one thing all people have. Different people have different fears. Mine sadly is loneliness, something we all feel when we are alone at night. Even sometimes among peers it is possible to feel lonely.

To fear such a thing is to fear losing everyone around you. To be afraid of such a thing it becomes a blessing and a curse. You being too kind to everyone in fear of losing them will hurt you while you being obsessive will hurt them. Yet being so you protect your friends when they need you to be there and thus will keep them there.

This fear of mine is not unfounded. I've never really lost the feeling of loneliness before in my life. Everywhere I go it seems to follow me with every passing day and almost every passing moment. Being lonely is something I have to get used to if I want to live on like this. However that is not the case for me. I want to live differently and not be lonely anymore.

I know why I feel lonely. It is because I want someone to be there to talk to me 24/7 but I know its not possible. But then again I got my brothers and my friends with me. So yeah that cures most of it.

Even with this part cured there is a part of me that still feels lonely on this earth. I know how to cure it but it isn't simple because nothing is ever so simple that I could just let it go like that. And the problem with this small part that eats away at me is that the more I try to let go of it the more it comes back and also the more I don't let go the more it gets stronger. This want, this urge....

I want to cure it but I wish I knew another method than the one I have now.....
Can any of you help me with it...::

.:Fireport blogged on 5:31 PM:.
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