::I just finished watching Notting Hill. As good as the show maybe I feel like a total piece of crap. I mean a book seller can get an actress wife, I'm a 17 year old still maturing teen and I can't even get a half-decent girlfriend!!?!?!

Its not that my ex-girlfriends weren't decent, mind you they all were, its that no matter how hard I try there isn't a girl I am fond of now. There isn't even a girl which I'm even half attracted too. And that scares the living daylights out of me. It just isn't right, I ain't no wanking Welshman or some sick perverted Chinese fuck head. I gave up on all that a good long time ago.

Why the hell am I as unlucky as a cow with 7 udders, or a horse with 4 legs and is hung high. I totally can't think of anything to do right now. I have lost all focus in my life and I have no idea what to do with it anymore. I guess this is what they call "When Life Comes and Fucks You UP".

WOW!!!! It is so great to have it this way eh? FUCK YOU LIFE YOU CAN COME AND LICK MY BALLS AND KISS MY ASS. You know what? I've had it up to here *points at head* with your stupid fate and shit ass logic about destiny. You can wipe my shit with that crap and still get clean water. I AM GOING TO PERSONALLY CONTROL MY DESTINY FROM NOW ON AND IF I DON'T MY NAME IS JEBADIAH JENKINS AND IT FUCKING AIN'T.

I DO NOT CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME ANYMORE, NBA ALLSTAR OR FUCKED UP CHICKEN OR ARROGANT BASTARD YOU CAN ALL KISS MY ASS IF YOU THINK THAT WAY ABOUT ME. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE.

And all I wanted was for somebody to maybe come my way and help me out of this personal dilemma....::

.:Fireport blogged on 9:59 PM:.
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