::Heavy
Thats how I'm feeling right now
lol
Talking to Yuuka-chan last night really made me feel very heavy
Like I'm burdened by my own will.
My own beliefs.
I'm strong enough not to breakdown and feel down and out right now
but I'm not sure after 22 days from now.
I'm counting the days till I think I can see her again
ahhaa
I'm really a hopeless romantic that does not have enough self-esteem when I really meet a girl
I can truly fall for
I mean
If it was just another girl on the street
Which I want to hook up with
It would be super easy
just to get her
with a whole bunch of lies
No matter how much resolve I have
I have a feeling I'm going to get hurt very badly at the end of this
Chapter of my life
My fortunes have been changed I guess.
My luck is running out.
I think even my trusted nakama might leave me alone from now on
haha
I guess the coyote needs to live like a lone wolf from now on right?
Maybe the stories were true
The coyote doesn't have friends
Cause all that he trust will turn on him in end...
But I doubt so
lol
How can my trust in her and the 3 others be so easily broken right?
I still have 3 more people to find
at the end
when everything comes full circle
I'll test the truth of that phrase.
but hey
whats this chill I feel in my heart.
Will glass turn to Ice?::

.:Fireport blogged on 2:09 PM:.
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