::And there it goes
you know when ever I see it
I'm always one step behind her
She has found someone for herself
I can only imagine how lucky that guy is
you know?
Its been troubling me for a while now
that I can't ever get to her
Because she doesn't know who I am
Sure I know I shouldn't be having these thoughts
But heck I'm not dumb enough to ruin their happy ending
lol
I'll still be here liking the girl
haha
I think after this those who have been speculating can guess who it is
Provided you know me well enough lah
or if you've guessed from my habits recently
about how much I've put my heart into this
lol
Its tearing me up from the inside slowly
I mean
Sure I've been love lorn
heartbroken and such
but this is something else
Its like losing something more than my heart
Its like its killing my soul
I really wish that girl might change her mind
and maybe leave that guy
lol
I know its impossible
Its their story after all
And my story here is in the shadows
Silently feeling pain and sorrow
While still rooting for her that she can keep her happy ending the way she wants it
I don't know what to do about it anymore
Ok fine
I think its time I release the restraints I've been putting to limit myself
Starting with studies and gaming
Basketball has been on so long
I've really lost my skill
But studies and gaming are always up to standard
but it will take a while
Maybe when I get my music right
I can win her heart
But I'll reveal it slowly to her
lol
So she will know that I really want her to be happy
Even if it wasn't with me
At least she'd be happy
I may want her to be closer to me
but hey
Isn't what me and this girl have
Good enough for now?
haha
Maybe for her
Maybe for everyone
But I long for something more
But now its good enough
That we are friends lol
anyways heres the end of todays post
If any of you place her name in my tag board
I will skin you alive and quarter you
Then I'll slowly roast you infront of your loved one
and then slaughter you're family
haha
I MEAN IT
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And to any of my ex-es
Please do not delude yourselves
Its not you
Its someone else
and to that girl
If you know who you are
Please keep it a secret from me
Just tag on the board that you know its you
If you do
and if you do read my blog
haha
Night ya'll
I'll go bath then play to 100 deaths with Tossgirl
I hope this time
I can reach 10::

.:Fireport blogged on 7:30 PM:.
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