::You know seeing my 2 good friends and 1 best friend in love
is a great experience lol
I mean for my 2 good friends it's their Virgin Love so I wish them good luck
and Long love
My virgin love didn't really last long
haha
I'm to blame for it cause of my childishness
and past obsession with girls
lol
I've started to re-enter the CS world yesterday
My re-entry isn't complete till I get my skills back
from training
I won't be training today cause I'm too tired
Sorry ToSsGirL
lol I'm really too tire to train today
lol
I've re-entered SouL in hopes of bringing our name to greater glory
So my free time will be spent on CS and my guitar
lol
I remember telling my friends that I'd find a girlfriend after you all got yours
I'm sorry I can't really be fast with it
My heart is still too cold to fall in love
That girl I mentioned
I guess I was too guilty that I tried to mask it
I love her more than a sister but I can't stand to make her my girlfriend
In fear of hurting her
I can't find a girlfriend yet
I'm not ready
Cause either my heart freezes up or it melts back
Either way when it happens I'll find a girlfriend
Now I'm only in love with my music and my game
Also my art lol
Check out my new Anti-Noob Avatars later
at the end of my post
lol
I'm kinda jealous of the three couples too
I hope to find my own too
lol
But sadly there isn't really any girl for me
And I'm not really aiming for anyone cause of my "heart" problem
lol
So guys
When I find the right one
I'll find the right one
I don't care who it will be for now
All I know is that she'd appreciate me for who I am
and not force me to change
or expect me to change my habits for her
I've changed too much for my ex-girlfriends
I forgot myself
But now I've got this small chance of recovery
I'm going to use it to heal myself
Find myself
And save up some cash
So alvin the 210?
I'll give it to you slowly over 7 or 8 payments
lol
My life is one screwed up mess
I wish God could come in help me clean it
And put me back on my feet
But I know he won't
lol
Its a test I have to go through
My faith in God hasn't dwindled
lol
Neither has my suspicion of church
lol
I trust God
not the church
remember that my christian friends
lol
Its an old habit
lol
Don't worry nothing against anyone
or anything so no hard feelings k?
haha

I guess this would be the end of my post here
and here are the avatars
Anti Noob 1



Anti-Noob 2


Anti-Noob 3
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