::God
I'm in tears again
lol
Yes its cause of a girl
but she didn't make me sad
I did
Or rather my past actions did
The moment I heard her voice
I felt sad
I felt sad that I made such a nice girl cry
I felt sad that I couldn't keep any of my promises to her
I felt sad that I wanted to make her happy
But I made her cry....
When I hung up from voice chat
I really couldn't hold it back anymore
don't know why
You know
I can't ever really let go of any of my ex-girls
I mean its not that I'm a flirt or anything
Its just that I really just want
Someone to come and tell me
That she would come and help me
lol
Sure the other girls said that
But she
Her
The way she said it
Made my heart move so badly
It brought me to tears
I'm not someone who likes to cry
But now
I know who is it
in the rain that I see
I couldn't
at first
but now I think I know who it is
lol
I'm not saying who it is
but if she knows its her
then good for her
lol
if not
well
She'll figure it out
lol
I'm not going to say
that I'm not ever gonna get a girl if she won't be mine
Or that I will hold out till I can get her
Cause that isn't the way I roll
Like I said
It isn't that I'm flirtatious
Its that I'm this way
I can't change myself just like that
But in this post
and only this post
I'll say this
I'll never be 100 percent serious
with those girls
Until either I get her
or know that she will never be mine...
I don't know why
but there it is
I said it
The words in my heart
I know hardly anyone reads my blog
so its ok
I'll say it
Talk to you guys tomorrow
and happy 151 post::

.:Fireport blogged on 8:59 PM:.
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