::I'm falling apart....
I don't know what to do with myself...
It's starting to bother my life..
Ever since I knew that I lied about everything...
Ever since I knew I was nothing but a lie
My whole life has been unraveling
My spirit is broken
My body is weak...
Let the Lord take my soul and let me earn his keep...
I need something to save me from this crap...
I don't want to be emo..
I hate it..
lol
I wish I could make her leave without hurting her
Cause if she stayed..
She'd get hurt even more...
She isn't prepared for what is happening to me now...
I rather she didn't see it at all...
Thats why I hid it from everyone till now...
I can't hide anymore...
I can't run anymore...
My life is in ruin...
My dreams are in tatters...
I don't want this anymore
I want to end everything right now....
This is not a suicide note...
This is a statement of truth
This is a statement of force
I don't want to hurt anymore...
I JUST WANT PEACE IN MY LIFE...
I wish my superior could stop asking me to do the job anymore...
Teck Whye is not my problem
It's his....
I will not do that anymore...
I quit...
As for love wise....
I don't want her to get hurt...
Life wise...
I want to concentrate on my music , game and studies...
Thats all I want to concentrate about now...
Nothing else is as important as those three.
The three reasons I'm still alive...
Enough of the lies...
This is the truth now...
No more facades of a fool...
This is Ellumic "edward" Dames
No more lies about it
I might be Edward Cheang by Ident
but I am Ellumic through and through
I'll let my music be my tools
My game be my relaxation
and my studies my focus
I'm sick and tired
Of playing it easy
It's time to get in shape::

.:Fireport blogged on 10:42 PM:.
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