::Why does it feel so painful sometimes.....
When I see you sad...
When I see you emotional....
It hurts so much I want to die.....
Every moment I see you sad or in fustration......
I feel so a rush of pain...
Its so different with others....
When others are in sadness or anger...
All I feel is the same emotion...
But with you...
The feeling is amplified a sevenfold....
no...
A thousand fold....
I feel pain which is worse than any wound or injury....
Now do you know why I look sad or angry when you do?
Its cause I can feel it....
Its cause its flowing out of you like a stream that has been released from a dam....
I don't know why but I can control it sometimes...
But most times it comes at me at rate which I can't control it....
You affect me more than you know....
Every little thing you do...
Every small movement...
Affects me...
Every breath...
Every Step....
Every Heartbeat...
Every Word....
Every thought...
It affects me....
That Saturday you agreed to be my girlfriend....
Was the day I gave you abit of my soul and heart to keep....
It is something I've done many times before...
But every time they came back tired, shattered, broken or plainly just gone.....
I'm scared....
I really am...
Why can't we just be happy everyday without any anger or stuff....
I won't change my girlfriend...
and if I can't help you change....
I'll change my self to suit you....
To help you be happier...
I don't mind being a tool...
I don't mind being just a phase in your life to be happier...
As long as I know I loved you with all my heart....
Even if its broken in the end....
I won't regret it...
I'm stupid that way...
No matter how smart I may be in others...
In affairs of the heart....
I'm a fool hardy idiot that does anything for the one I love...
As long as I can help her.....
Its all I can do for her....
The thing is I love you...
I can't live without you....
You are all I have to keep myself alive...
Maybe I can get over you if you leave....
But this time I think I'm more likely to kill myself in my own misery...
Either physically or metaphoriclly...
I'll die in emotion or body...
It doesn't matter....
But I will not regret loving you....
Spending all possible time I have with you...
You are more important than anyone or anything....
Everything pales in comparison to you....
I'm not good in words or poetry...
Rather I'm not good enough to my own standards...
But still I'll try in every way to improve my own technique and level....
If I could serenade you with words and emotions straight from my heart everyday....
I now know why girls always picked other guys even though I wooed them....
They always picked the less complicated guy...
The one who was of few words and language....
The one who need not speak to convey a message of love and affection...
I can never be that man or person...
I hope you can accept that....
The only way I know how to show my love and affection is through words and whatever I can do that I consider beneath me yet do them with all my heart and soul....
I just hope in the end....
Even if I'm late for the dance of life....
You'd save the last dance for me...
And dance till the end....

" There's no sense in telling me the wisdom of the fool won't set you free..."
Jewel - Bizzare Love Triangle

" I can have many lovers, many courteseans and ladies,
They will never compare to you,
I can have all the riches in the world,
But they will never be worth anything if I'm not with you,
I can have all the pictures, flowers and art in the world,
But they all pale in your beauty,
I can say all the words of love and poetry in the world,
But they wouldn't mean a thing if you didn't believe me......"
Edward Cheang
(C) 2007::

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