::I'm FUCKING PISSED.
Damn it
Why the hell is the whole day wrong
I argued with my mom
My girlfriends injured
I feel like the whole world is against me.....
Even with her around....
Even though I know she cares.....
I feel like I'm alone with no one there.......
WHY CAN'T I FEEL CARED FOR
WHY DO I ONLY KNOW FEAR ANGER AND FUCKING SORROW
WHY IS MY HAPPINESS ALWAYS SHATTERED AWAY
WHY IS IT THAT MY LIFE IS A FUCKING MISERABLE TALE
THAT I SHOULD BE EMO ABOUT BUT FUCKING FEEL ITS NOTHING TO BE SAD ABOUT?
CAN ANYONE FUCKING TELL ME WHY?
TELL ME WHY DO I ACT HAPPY WHEN I'M SAD.....
TELL ME WHY THE HELL WHEN I ACT HAPPY IT SEEMS SO REAL THAT EVEN THE PEOPLE AROUND ME REALLY THINK THAT?
WHY IS IT AROUND HER, I FEEL HAPPY, I MEAN TRUELY HAPPY, YET I FEEL FEAR AND INSECURE?
I'M REALLY SCARED OF LOSING HER
BUT WHAT CAN I DO?
DO I HAVE TO ACT LIKE I'M NOT AFRAID?
DO I HAVE TO BEHAVE LIKE I'M SO SUPER CONFIDENT?
WHY CAN'T PEOPLE SEE I'M A WEAK KID ACTING STRONG FOR EVERYBODY'S SAKE.
WHY DO I TRY AND DO SO MUCH, TRY AND SACRIFICE SO MUCH FOR OTHER PEOPLE, TAKE THE BLAME FOR THEM, DO THIER DIRTY WORK, TAKE THE RAP, PAY THIER DUES AND DEBTS AND KNOW THAT I HAVE NOTHING TO EARN IN THE END.
WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE I'M ALONE EVEN WITH SO MANY FRIENDS.
WHY DO I FEEL ALONE?
SO WHAT IF I CAN SEE GHOST.
SO WHAT IF MY LIFE IS SHORT.
WHY THE FUCK DOES EVERYONE WANNA DIE SO FUCKING YOUNG?!!!!
TAKE IT FROM SOMEONE WHO IS DESTINED TO DIE YOUNG.
ITS NOT SOMETHING YOU FUCKING WANT.
FUCK IT ALL MAN
SOMETIMES I WISH THERE WAS AN ESCAPE TO ALL THIS
AND SO FAR THE ONLY ESCAPE I HAVE FROM ALL OF THIS FUCKING NONSENSE IS THE TIME I SPEND WITH HER.
FUCK IT ALL DAMN IT
FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK.
WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO BE SO IMPATIENT.
WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO WANT HER TO CHANGE SO FAST SO BAD?
IS IT CAUSE I HAVE LITTLE TIME?
OR IS IT CAUSE I'M SELFISH AND JEALOUS THAT SHE LOVES HIM STILL EVEN THOUGH I KNOW SHE LOVES ME AS WELL?
FUCK IT
I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE
MY HEAD IS IN A FUCKING HEADACHE.
Rainie....
could you please....
be there for me....
I need you...
now more then ever.....::

.:Fireport blogged on 8:32 PM:.
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