::How long does it take for someone to forget another....
Eternity can sound long enough but too long for me.....
Why is it when others feel sorrow i just shut off my emotions to not feel at all....
Yet when it comes to remembering the forgotten i treat them like the ones i knew all along...
Love is giving and taking...
Am I asking too much...
Or am I taking too much too fast...
Time...
The one luxury I don't have is catching up to me...
Symptoms are showing...
But the signs of the time isn't...
I hope that special someone keeps his end of the deal...
I love her with all my heart...
Yet sometimes i'm confused about how she feels...
I trust her...
But i don't trust myself to be strong enough to have her stay if he ever comes back...
which might and might not happen...
I've seen enough in this lifetime to be called an old timer...
I've seen people die because of love...
And people who do not give up on live because of love...
I may be close to insanity now...
I may not...
But death lingers ever so near with each passing day...
Every day without seeing her is becoming like a trial of patience...
Something i must learn...
If she ever reads this...
Which i think she will...
I don't know...
Maybe she might decide I'm not good enough and leave...
Despite our promises to each other...
But yet something in me tells me that she won't leave...
I know she still thinks of him...
I know she still misses him...
I know he doesn't care...
She knows it too I think...
But he...
He who has made her cry...
Made her hurt...
Will never know what he destroyed when he left her...
Like L4rg0 said...
Your damaged but not broken...
Rainie...
Your just hurt but you can recover...
Let me be the one to help you....
If you would...
I will do my best to change all the wrongs into rights..
All the darkness into light...
I can't do without you...
He doesn't deserve your sorrow or whatever girl he holds in his hands...
He doesn't deserve your lingering thoughts...
I think if he felt guilt he would have apologized...
Or atleast kept as friends...
I might not know all that has passed...
But all I know...
Is that I want her to be happy again...
I want her to smile...
I want her to be able to laugh...
To breath freely without him in her thoughts..
I'd do all that...
I'd do anything to help her do that...
If my life was the price to pay...
Heavy as it may...
I will pay it...
I love you Rainie...
Do you love me too?::

.:Fireport blogged on 5:20 PM:.
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